From the recording DEVIANT - DIGITAL DOWNLOAD
I remember when I used 2 be so nervous, innocently looking 4 a man 2 service.
Looking 4 release or a getaway 2 escape the depression of every day.
I found it in my own relentless dancing, the bass hard underneath the lights romancing.
I didn't know how 2 play the game when I was throwing off a scent & there were looking 4 strays.
Here comes another mature hot daddy, the only one walking my way, so I'm flattered.
I said, “Hey, hello, my name is Steve.”
He said, “oh yeah, you're kinda cute, but you're sorta naïve. I love that innocent thing about U, any man in the world would want U!”
He grabbed me by the hand cuz he's ready 2 dance
but then I'm in a dark corner and he's dropping his pants.
Hold up! It ain't that type of party.
Uh-unh! U must be insane. I don't even know your name. I feel so ashamed.
Everybody needs somebody, but first I wanna get 2 know U.
And I wanna take it slow and I wanna be in love.
After years of this, I couldn't even get a kiss.
I was getting' kind of pissed, so I said “uh-oh!”
Now I'm left behind and the world is changing.
12 year olds are out their pants and slammin'.
And I'm still a virgin and I'm bout 2 implode.
I get so fucking horny, I just gotta explode.
All I ever get is a rejection. I never thought my heart would need protection,
but boys will be boys, they just wanna play.
They got dick on their head and their head in their hands.
So, I pulled a switch and I came cocky. I didn't give a fuck who didn't like me.
That's when the battle of the bulge began.
They would bend, I'd stick in and then I'd cum & cum again.
Then all conversations turned to questions: How many inches? Your position?
Do U like pain? Do U like the rain? Do U just wanna jack or can we bareback?
Hell no! It ain't that type of party.
Uh-unh! I'm like “tricksta, please!”
I don't want no disease. I just want U on your knees.
Tonight I just need your body.
I don't wanna get 2 know ya like U don't wanna know me.
I just wanna feel U blow me.
Fuck relationships. Hurt my heart won't miss
4 a momentary bliss, so instead I go …
Boy 2 boy. I could get addicted. Boy 2 boy. I could be so wicked.
Boy 2 boy. I could close my heart up with another boy's hard on.
Boy 2 boy. Everybody does it. Boy 2 boy. And I'm just getting' started.
Boy 2 boy. And I won't be sorry. Boy 2 boy.
Another lonely night & I'm feeling desperate.
Cruising cyber hell just 2 make a connection.
Little did I know I would finally meet the most beautiful boy I had ever seen.
20 minutes later and we got our clothes off, tongues in each other & I'm feeling lost
& I gotta thank God in the Heavens above 4 sending me somebody that I think I can love.
Or maybe love's just one big illusion, or maybe God's mad cuz he sees what I'm doing.
I couldn't help myself, had 2 swallow him, then I turned him backside & I went in 2 rim.
He was so good he could've made me drool but I had 2 play it off like I was cool
cuz one thing I learned is how 2 play the game.
If U seem 2 needy then u push ‘em away.
Then he told me that he had a girlfriend. 26 old and he's in the closet.
Yeah, we could fuck, but there it would end.
No we couldn't hang out and we couldn't be friends.
I said “ok” and that I understand. Then he said he had 2 go and he shook my hand.
I walked him 2 the door and I said “goodbye” when everything inside me was wanting 2 cry no:
Hold up! Do U really have 2 go now? Please come back and stay.
Come 2 my arms and lay. We can find a better way.
Everybody needs somebody. I don't wanna let U go.
I don't wanna be alone. All I wanna do is hold ya.
Don't let the world condemn U. U can love yourself
and they can all go 2 Hell. Then maybe I could share your world.
Cuz everybody needs somebody. Maybe U could need me.
Maybe U could love me and I could love U.
Some boys, they don't like the fem. Some boys live life in the gym.
Some R looking 4 a pretty twink. Some get high 4 an ass that's pink.
Some white boys don't like the black. Some black boys wanna stab your back.
Seems like everybody wants 2 trade something better 4 another day.
Some boys R all tied up inside and all they wanna do is die.
Boys don't want 2 be old men and old men want 2 begin again.
Everybody wants 2 wear a mask, like in the military U just ‘don't ask'.
Don't know why but everything's just fucked up.